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16 August 2011

Red bloody show

I had red bloody discharge this morning at 3.15 am. At first I thought maybe it's more water and I tried to get back to sleep but a wave of contraction woke me up. I wanted to sit up and maybe walk around to make the contraction go away. And since I'm up, might as well go to the toilet.

Realised that it's fresh red blood and immediately went to shower. Even deliberately wash my hair twice. I took a photo of my pad and posted it on SMH facebook group. I on the bathroom light, brushed my teeth, showered but Hubby still sleeping as dead as a log.

So I called him to wake up and showed him the blood. First thing he said was 'Then how?'. Coz at 8 am he has to do a training at another place with 80 people. My heart sanked but I didn't show it. I said maybe he can fetch me to the hospital and then go off a little while and come back to visit me again.

We went to have prata for breakfast and then headed straight to Mount A. Dr Poon did say that if there is fresh red blood, just proceed to hospital first. While eating prata, I had mild contractions and I really thought today is the day :) Bunny decided to make her appearance after we prayed to our blessed Mother Mary last night (Day of Assumption).

We reached Mount A at 4.55 am to be exact. I was being put on CTG scan again. One nurse came and inserted her fingers inside my down there because there was no further bleeding or obvious close contractions observed. She said that I'm only 1 cm dilated. Then Hubby left for work at 7.00 am, as he couldn't contact his colleagues to cover him. He was worried that I'll be upset with him but I told him if he needs to go, he can go. Soon, Dr Poon came at 7.45 am. He put his fingers in and then he said my cervix is still thick. Even if he induce me today, my cervix may not be opened and might end up ec-sec. He strongly recommend that I go back home to rest and not admit today. I just have to see him on Thursday.

I was put on CTG for another round and I left the hospital at 8.45 am. The bill came up to be $256. I can't stop tearing while walking to the bus stop. I am so disappointed with myself, with my cervix, why issit not opened and ready? I thought I could see Baby today and carry her in my arms by tonight. I thought today is the day 16/8/11. Antenatal class taught us that if we see red discharge, have to admit to the hospital. But how come for me it's considered as false alarm still? I'm feeling confused, upset, disappointed and even quite angry - because according to Dr Chen my EDD is 30 August but Dr Poon mentioned twice to the nurses that it's 7 Sept.

When I boarded the bus, no one gave up seat for me and I cried even harder. I'm not sure why. I am not upset or anything, just feeling emo. On the way home, I decided to buy Macdonalds to cheer myself up a little (though still crying). Hubby called and checked on me but I told him that there's no need for him to come back home. He can carry on working since I'm fine and will be resting.

I'm still sad but will be fine after a while. I need to go catch some sleep. Very tired.

15 August 2011

Brown discharge, Water leaking

I had brown discharge yesterday morning at 10.30 am before my dim sum treat to my family members. Yup despite the brown discharge, I still went out. I called gynae. He said if I see red discharge, waterbreak burst or tummyache, then straight away admit to hospital.

After the dim sum treat, we went home and I took a 2-hour nap. When I woke up to bathe, there were a few drops of water from my down below. I touched and smelt it. No it's not urine. Then I thought maybe it's my sweat. I told Hubby about it. He thinks it's sweat too.

No action all the way until night time. I still manage to go to church at 6 pm and had dinner with my parents at Boon Keng market. Contractions were felt on and off throughout the night but they were bearable and I thought there is nothing to be concerned about. At 4 am, I was awakened twice by two waves of contractions. But they went away shortly and I managed to sleep until Hubby woke up at 7.15 am.  Realised that I have some brown discharge again. But since not red, so didn't panic.

Dr Poon called at 8.00 am to check on me. I was lying on the bed. I told him that I'm okay, just that I had some brown discharge and some irregular contractions. He told me to see him at his clinic abt 9.30 am. I hung up the phone and then wanted to shower and prepare myself. But I felt a trickling of liquid from my buttocks. I thought maybe it's blood. I took a tissue and wipe, it's water leh. My sweat again?!

When I undressed, there was again that same droplets of water from my down there. I went to touch and smell it again. It's not urine. The texture is slightly sticky. It's transparent. I wiped off the fluid from my inner thigh and concluded that perhaps it's my amniotic fluid leaking. But weird, it's not waterbag burst or constant mild water flowing out. It's just droplets of water - as if the last day of menses that kind of flow or even lesser.

I showered and sms my mom. My parents are coming to fetch me to the clinic while I am typing this. Haven't told Hubby about it yet because he is busy at work. Will update him after I see Dr Poon.
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So suay that my hp is dead. I can't call out, answer calls, access any of the apps, cannot even shut down my hp. So I can't call the clinic beforehand. We just went down to Hougang directly. When we were there, the receptionist told us that doctor is in the hospital and they tried calling me but can't reach me.

So after a quick breakfast, we headed down to Mount A coz I told them that my water is leaking. Was put on CTG scan again and then Dr Poon came. He put two fingers into my down there and felt the baby's head. He said that it's not low enough and still not engaged. He also put an apparatus inside and said there is still brown discharge. Later, he did an ultrasound scan and said that Baby is fine and heartbeat is okay. The bill came up to be $180!

He asked me to go home and wait until REAL labour kicks in, which he guessed would be this Wed or Thursday. I guess he didn't want to induce me because he didn't want to risk cutting me, as Baby's head is not engaged yet.

My parents waited for me and then my mom talked to Dr Poon too. He told her Wed or Thurs will be it. Just now, my mom asked me to call the clinic coz they are looking for me. (Remm my hp is down?) They told me to go straight to Mount A this Thursday.

Hope baby be co-operative and guai guai.

10 August 2011

Maternity shots

Wanted to save money so asked Hubby to take some shots for me at the swimming pool instead of having it done professionally. I liked 5 pictures out of all that he took.



09 August 2011

37 weeks (low amniotic fluid)

Yesterday, I had slight light brown discharge. So I called Dr Poon, whether I should see him earlier instead of 8 pm. He said it's better to come in and asked me when is the earliest I can reach. I told him 2 pm. Informed Hubby about it. After meeting Ferene, we had wanted to watch 'Planet of the Apes' at Cineleisure but the plan has to be cancelled and I headed back home.

Hubby asked whether today is the day? I told him maybe not, coz it's light brown discharge, not blood and I didn't feel much contractions. Nevertheless, I showered and ensure my "luggage" is ready, just in case I have to check into the hospital.

Dr Poon said that from the ultrascan observation, my amniotic fluid is low and baby has lesser movements. I need to go Mount A to do a CTG scan in case baby is in distress. I thought he meant the next appointment, but he said if you can, go today and go NOW. He mentioned that after the report is out, if need be, he will come down to the hospital and might need to induce or do a c-sec for me. (c-sec because Baby's head is down but not engaged) And he asked 'Are you prepared already?'. Baby is 2.5 kg and he said it's safe if she wants to come out now though he prefers that she pops next week.

Then after Hubby and me had our late lunch, we headed straight to Mount A. Thankfully CTG scan shows that baby's heartbeat is within the safe range, I'm having mild contractions already but I don't have to be admitted. It costs $60 for the 1 hour scan. Dr Poon called and asked the nurse to fax the report over to him. And he asked me to see him at his clinic tomorrow for follow-up, just in case.



Hubby sensed that I am quite tensed and he said I look stressed. I told him it's because I'm having contractions now and trying to time the intervals. I also didn't have much appetite lately. My weight remained at 59 kg (but glad that Baby put on from 1.9 to 2.5 kg).

I feel ache all over - my head, neck, shoulders, arm, legs, joints. I hope that Baby comes out soon.

The confinement lady called me up to check on me and asked roughly when I will deliver. She said to let her know once I'm admitted to the hospital.

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Back from gynae. He said that amniotic fluid is not low until I must induce esp since that now her head is not engaged yet. The best case scenario is to wait for baby to be ready to decide when she wants to come out. Yup, so baby... we are all waiting for your grand appearance.

My next appt with gynae is on 15 August.

02 August 2011

2nd batch of Osh Kosh/Carter loots


2nd batch of Osh Kosh and Carter's spree I did for Baby. These are all wearable from 9 months - 2 years old. Mommy really kiasu hor. Baby is not even out yet and I've bought so many clothes already.