骨莫裂，筋道发炎

"骨莫裂，筋道发炎 ，三只手指无力"

Saw acupuncturist, tui na shi fu and worn wrist guard. Doesn't help and the pain got more and more intense. It got worse few days ago after baby gave me her flying kick when I change her diaper.


Seen a chinese bone specialist shi fu. I was warned not to move my wrist for at least 3 days for the bone tissue to recover. Today, my mom helped me and the next 2 days hubby will help me. I cannot even carry baby for a second. This is how serious it is.

And of course Papa will have to wake up for night feeds (Friday, Saturday and Sunday - and Monday is a public holiday; full day for him to rest). He just commented that he "will die". One full day to recuperate he still will die -_-||   If so, I would have been dead 3 months ago.

This shifu even knows that I keep looking down. He asked me not to look down so much cos my neck is starting to give me problems too. Of course la, feed baby milk every 3 hours - look down. Latch baby - look down. Pump milk - look down at hp. Change diaper - look down.

It's challenging showering on my own cos I cannot wash the right side of my body and can't reach my back. Oh, and I managed to hold my pump bottle with the injured hand. I still manage to pump. In fact I think I can pump on time since now hubby is helping to take care of baby. LOL.

My left hand

I know I need to seek urgent treatment when:

1. I am being woken by several times by the sharp pain from my left hand.
2. I cannot hold a cotton bud to clean my ear with my left hand.
3. I cannot shampoo my hair with my left hand.
4. I grit my teeth and endure the pain each time I put on/take off my bra.
5. I can't hold my pump bottle with my left hand after 5 mins.
6. My right hand is showing symptoms of what my left hand experienced months ago.

And it doesn't help when:
a) I am the sole caregiver for baby. My condition has worsened after her various kicks and punches.
b) I need to handwash baby's laundry all by myself.
c) I need to do simple housework at home.
d) I need to wash seemingly endless bottles and teats after pumping and feeding.
e) FIL can't take baby's crying.
f) The maid calls it a day and shuts herself in her room at 8.15 pm everyday

The pain is so intense that each time I froze for a good 4-5 minutes when it strikes.

Last night at 8.30 pm, when I was busy washing baby's clothes, I left her in the playpen. She cries for me. So I put her on the rocker and continue with the laundry. She still cries for me to carry. I went to carry baby and I broke down with her.

I didn't ask the maid to take care of baby. She has never changed a single diaper or showered baby at all. At the most is help me carry when I need to take a bath or go to the toilet. But she still decides to leave, so previously what she claims ("If I need to take care of mil and baby, I don't want.") doesn't stand.

I broke down feeling that my life is so much tougher than the maid. She sleeps and rests longer hours than me and still complains that she is tired and has too much to do. *appalled*

Baptism

My baby is a good gal. Went through Sunday mass and then Baptism mass. She was well-behaved throughout and attentive through both masses. No fussing even when the water was poured over her forehead whereas a 4 year old child yelled on stage when it happened. Mommy is so proud of you baby.