Home birth unexpected

Baby E is here.

I had an unplanned home birth. Thankfully I had a doula with me. She reached my house and was shocked that I am almost 10 cm dilated. We wouldn't have time to make it to the hospital and thus I gave birth on my bed kneeling down and hugging hubby.

More detailed description below.

3 am - contractions about 15 - 20 mins apart
3.30 am - show
4 am - contractions about 12 mins apart
4.30 am - waterbag broke
5 am - intense contractions about 8 - 10 mins apart
6.30 am - daughter woke up
6.45 am - informed hubby that baby will come today
7 am - preparing her for school and telling her that Papa will send her to school because mommy is having a tummyache
7.45 am - hubby back at home
8 am - applied lavendar oil to make me more relax
8.30 am - contractions are so close and intense, unable to time them anymore
8.45 am - poop uncontrollably in my panties
9 am - doula reached my house and we were discussing whether there is time to go to the hospital
9.30 am - poop again
10 am - contractions heightened. Felt the need to move about
10.15 am - lay towels on bed and doula massaged me
10.30 am - I asked doula if I can remove my panties now, she said ok. Doula said can feel baby's head and asked me to push if I feel like pushing. I suddenly feel very tired and weak and wanted to doze off already. I asked doula what should I do now? Because if I sleep, I don't feel the pain. Should I take a nap? Doula said when baby is ready she will come out. Just breathe and feel the baby.

Then doula called my gynae and informed him about the situation. Gynae said 'Ok, if the baby comes, she'll come. Everything will be fine'.

I suddenly felt tightness and numbness around my bottom and after several pushes, I heard baby's cry. Doula caught my baby. I was still in the kneeling position. I asked her "what should I do now?" She told me to undress lie down gently and she will put baby on me.

There, my baby is here. 

Then I still feel contractions and I asked the doula what's going on? She said my placenta will be out soon. It was still quite painful but baby was on me and she distracted me from the pain. My eyes were all on her. She is just perfect. She is so beautiful and slippery. She kept gliding down. I had some pillows behind my back to make myself more upright and she managed to breastfeed within 30 mins.

After that, together with my placenta (in a bag) and baby on my other arm, hubby drove me to the gynae's clinic. I felt very weak, almost no strength to carry the baby, as if I just ran a marathon but still managed to walk there. When I reached there, my pants were already drenched in blood. I kept apologising to everyone. It was so embarrassing.

Gynae stitched me up and I could go home right away with baby.

A pure heart

A pure heart

That's what I long for

A heart that follows hard after thee

I asked if she was drawing an ice cream. She said no. It's a strawberry.

We made pizza for dinner that day. I started with the bread dough (great that I have the breadmaker machine) and then prepared the fillings (corn, capsicum, mushroom, tuna spread, tomato puree). She enjoyed it very much and ate a small size pizza all on her own.

New School 2014

And so, G entered the new school. It operates from 7 am to 7 pm. Yes childcare. Though we have no intentions to put her full day there, we still have to pay for full day.

I accompanied her for 2 days orientation (Thur and Fri) from 8 am to 3pm till she woke up from nap. My! She was so sticky to me, ensuring that I was within sight and sometimes even wanted me to carry her. She wasn't participating much in school and responding to the teachers (yet). She didn't speak a single word in school. I hope the new environment hadn't overwhelm her too much.

The night before we kept telling her (and also read bedtime story about it) regarding school and asked how she felt. She said "I feel excited". Let's believe that she is and things will be ok. This morning, daddy and mommy sent her to school. We saw many children crying at the entrance but surprisingly G didn't cry. Yes she was abit reluctant to go in. After I assured her that "mommy will pick you up at 12 noon and in the meantime have lots of fun", she slowly took off her shoes and held on to the teacher's hand.

The school didn't accept children to bring their own milk (formula or packet milk) for consumption. Everyone had to take their Nespray powdered milk. I couldn't agree to that because I am not intending to give G cow's milk. Have insisted to bring my own packet Vitasoy or Oat milk there.

They also don't allow milk before nap or bolster and soft toys during naptimes. It's abit tough to quit G off bolster when she sleeps. I am not sure how she can slowly wean off bolster in school. I have heard that children are very adaptable. Let's hope that she won't fuss too much without her bolster and milk before nap.

So far so good. No phonecalls from the school and I am able to blog now.

G is 2 years and 5 months now. She is growing up too fast.

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Day 3 on her own (Wednesday)

In the morning when she woke up, as usual, I changed her into her uniform and she eats breakfast. Then she suddenly took out her toys and played quietly at a corner (pretending/ assuming that we are staying at home). She said to me "Mommy, I don't want to go to school. I want to go mommy there please".  And she said it with a bit of a shaky voice.

Then along the way to school in her stroller, she kept wanting to detour to go here and there, to see other things. And pushing her towards the school entrance, she started to cry again and Daddy had to carry her out of the stroller. Awww... I feel so heartpain seeing her like that.

We are so sorry dear, please forgive us that you have to be separated this way when you are not quite ready. Thank you for even trying to adjust to a new school, with new teachers and friends all over again.

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G was kinda better on Thursday and Friday in school. Then came weekend. We had lots of time and fun with her together with the addition of a new domestic helper. My helper helped me shower G and change her and playing with her.

Last night (Sunday), she had some bad dreams about school (again) and woke up screaming and crying "I don't want to go to school. I want mommy". Lately, she also wants to be swaddled like an infant. She has a few times, pulled down my bra, put her mouth near and pretending to latch on. She said she wants to drink mommy's milk like a baby. Then, she told me that she doesn't want her baby sister to come in February anymore.

This morning, she took courage and stayed strong walking into the school gate. Bid us goodbye and went in. But as she was taking off her shoes, she burst out in tears and cried for me.

She seems to be going through alot of stress. My poor girl.