I had red bloody discharge this morning at 3.15 am. At first I thought maybe it's more water and I tried to get back to sleep but a wave of contraction woke me up. I wanted to sit up and maybe walk around to make the contraction go away. And since I'm up, might as well go to the toilet.
Realised that it's fresh red blood and immediately went to shower. Even deliberately wash my hair twice. I took a photo of my pad and posted it on SMH facebook group. I on the bathroom light, brushed my teeth, showered but Hubby still sleeping as dead as a log.
So I called him to wake up and showed him the blood. First thing he said was 'Then how?'. Coz at 8 am he has to do a training at another place with 80 people. My heart sanked but I didn't show it. I said maybe he can fetch me to the hospital and then go off a little while and come back to visit me again.
We went to have prata for breakfast and then headed straight to Mount A. Dr Poon did say that if there is fresh red blood, just proceed to hospital first. While eating prata, I had mild contractions and I really thought today is the day :) Bunny decided to make her appearance after we prayed to our blessed Mother Mary last night (Day of Assumption).
We reached Mount A at 4.55 am to be exact. I was being put on CTG scan again. One nurse came and inserted her fingers inside my down there because there was no further bleeding or obvious close contractions observed. She said that I'm only 1 cm dilated. Then Hubby left for work at 7.00 am, as he couldn't contact his colleagues to cover him. He was worried that I'll be upset with him but I told him if he needs to go, he can go. Soon, Dr Poon came at 7.45 am. He put his fingers in and then he said my cervix is still thick. Even if he induce me today, my cervix may not be opened and might end up ec-sec. He strongly recommend that I go back home to rest and not admit today. I just have to see him on Thursday.
I was put on CTG for another round and I left the hospital at 8.45 am. The bill came up to be $256. I can't stop tearing while walking to the bus stop. I am so disappointed with myself, with my cervix, why issit not opened and ready? I thought I could see Baby today and carry her in my arms by tonight. I thought today is the day 16/8/11. Antenatal class taught us that if we see red discharge, have to admit to the hospital. But how come for me it's considered as false alarm still? I'm feeling confused, upset, disappointed and even quite angry - because according to Dr Chen my EDD is 30 August but Dr Poon mentioned twice to the nurses that it's 7 Sept.
When I boarded the bus, no one gave up seat for me and I cried even harder. I'm not sure why. I am not upset or anything, just feeling emo. On the way home, I decided to buy Macdonalds to cheer myself up a little (though still crying). Hubby called and checked on me but I told him that there's no need for him to come back home. He can carry on working since I'm fine and will be resting.
I'm still sad but will be fine after a while. I need to go catch some sleep. Very tired.
