Baby is measuring 47 mm (4.7 cm) and healthy growth. We also managed to hear baby's heartbeat again last night. Sounds like horses galloping. We can now see baby's big head, body, tiny hands and feet and the flicking on the screen is the heartbeat. Baby is lying down in a very relaxed position. Haha.
Doc asked us to discuss whether we want to do the down syndrome test on our next visit.
Last night, Hubby and I had a big fight. It first started off with him not wanting to pay attention to the nurse's explanation during the payment (he was watching tv). Then it led on to him not understanding why I wanted to do the down syndrome test for assurance/peace of mind and to be mentally and emotionally prepared if the situation calls for it. He just shut me out by saying 'Have Faith'. That phrase and that tone and that look totally cut off all kinds of communication/sharing/discussion. Then in the car, it led to further arguments. The day didn't end well of course.
I woke up in the middle of the night after having some nightmares. And I have to explain to baby that I love him (it's a he for now, because twice in my dreams, he appeared to be a baby boy) and that I want to keep him with me safe and sound. I also asked God to give me the strength and wisdom to be a good mother.
I went to work exceptionally early to pray the rosary and to read up on the Novena prayer.
Later in the morning, Hubby sent me a message asking if I am safely at work. I replied him that I came early to pray. We said sorry and I emailed him what I truly feel about the down syndrome test. I hope that he understands my point of view. If he still insists that we shouldn't go for the test, then let's not have it.
All these unhappiness, hurts, anger and frustration between us is causing me and our baby so much negativity.
